Boys meet the world. Sometimes I wonder why all the guys think they are so cool, so popular, and so attractive. They think that because they are jocks and they have money that that automatically makes them better than me! They think that life is like the movies, that they can do what every they want and no one would care or say anything to they because they are on the high end of the totem or popularity poll and to them that’s all that matters. Like when you walk down the hallways and they look at you like you are a piece of garbage because you are not like them. Just because you are different and not like the people that surrounds them that doesn’t make you different or any less than they are. Everyone is equal no matter what people say or what they wear or act. You just have to stand up for yourself and not let what people think, or say, or do effect you! You are perfect the way you are. The jocks in the schools aren’t as perfect, or as happy as they seem. When they get out of school and into the real world then it will hit them, life isn’t as easy as they think it is, they will realize they can’t rely on their parents and their money anymore. Things change, and they will  finally realize that things aren’t so easy. They will finally look at the real people in there lives and know who is real and fake. The real beauty is for once you will grab the attention of the one you like. If you are like me I am not in with the in crowd and i like a jock. It was so humiliating when he found out … but the good news is when Guys grow up and mature they finally realize that what they want has been here all along they were just to blind to see it. Things change when guys start looking at life as if they were in the real world. The boys become mature and turn into young men!

Friends Can get through everything. No matter what happens your true friends will always stand by you. You are never alone. People come and go in your life, but the ones that were meant to stay in your life will always be there for you no matter what happens. In other cases people were only suppose to be in your life for a short period of time, they were to come and go but they made a difference or a change in your life no matter how big or small. Friends can survive anything that life throws you! If someone is jealous or mad at you them you should talk to them about what is going on. Don’t ever in any situation do what my ex-friend did to me. Its one thing to mess with me but when you mess with my twin brother and my family then that is drawing the line! You don’t go spreading rumors about people and make things up that are so unbelievable that people end up believing them. By doing this you make people not trust you and then people end up getting very very agree. I hate two faced people, people who lie, and schema, and cheat. I hate it with a burning passion. No matter what the reason someone gives to explain why they did it, I will not make it up to me.  By not doing it in the first place would be the right choice. What happens is everyone knows right from wrong, and people need to realize that. I am a forgiving person but  when something like this which is a big deal occurs I am not as forgiving, people should talk to people first to share how they are feeling. Even thou I am forgiving that doesn’t mean I will ever forget what you did to my family and I, but also I will NEVER beable to look at you in the same way, I won’t even be able to trust you. You won’t be my closest friend anymore, you have pushed us apart and you should have known this would happen, all actions have consequents. Think before you act, but also Friends can survive and get past everything, no matter what. But when people act a certain way always thing are they really your friend or are they fake and are they using you????

Today I was finishing cleaning out my backpack from the school year so I could through away all my garbage and make room, in the room were all of my things have been located for the last month. When I found a note from back in December that I received and the event of that day just started to race through my mind. I was walking to my locker and I found a note taped to my locker. I was surprised so I put my binders into my locker and then read the note. It said, “Amanda as you are now you could disappear and no one would notice. What is the point for you to be here then?” I took the note off my locker put it in my pocket, dropped my books to the ground and ran as fast as I could down the hall to the bathroom. I couldn’t stop crying. I went back to class and kept my head down for the rest of the day. I didn’t talk to anyone and I skipped lunch that day. That letter was really messing up my head. I didn’t know what to do so I ripped the note and flushed it down the toilet. It didn’t make me feel any better but at least I didn’t have to see it ever again. I didn’t tell anyone about the confrontation, because I knew no one would care. Where do I turn from here?

Some times life doesn’t go the way you want it to … and you get pulled in so many different directions that you don’t know were to turn or go! It makes everything seem like a mess … like you will never get out of it and everything is just getting worse instead of better, and that can be extremely frustrating. But you can’t give in and just give up, for you have worked so hard. Even thou people make you out to be someone that is perfect 24/7 … that makes you have so much stress in your life to the point were you are trying to please everyone else that is apart of your life … everyone that is except yourself the most important person there is. Just try to do your best, don’t worry what other people think, because most of time just doing your best is good enough. NEVER let anyone make you feel like you aren’t good enough or that you are a weak link on a team. Everyone has there own strengths and weaknesses, some peoples are just more visible than others. Just remember your weaknesses can always changes … your appearance does not define who you are … you define yourself. Go your best and show the rest that what your best is, is good enough for you and that it shouldn’t matter what they think because the only person that matters is you … and how you feel about what is happening, you need to take hold of the situation. Most of all take some time to rest and relax, do something fun, just for yourself. A Little R and R (Rest and Relaxations) but also make sure to give yourself some TLC (Tender Love and Care). Stress can easily be fixed with a schedule and a plan to get things done in a certain period of time.